can i even say how happy i am to have remus pre-PoA (really, just pre-OotP)right now? i don't know.

it was a different kind of angst, back in those days, and i rather preferred it. one could choose to wallow in those 12 years or to look forward with hope.

and i can read this and roll around in the angstiness of it while thinking you're going to find out, it's horrible, but it's not what you think in a hopeful sort of way and try not to think about what happens next.

thanks, man.